Poison flows throughout the blood,
A deadly mission,
Of that no doubt.
Needle hurts going in,
Days that follow taste like tin.
Escape the body,
Calm the mind,
Call the nurse,
Some are kind.
My numbers say it’s worth the pain,
I nod along to convince my brain.
Poison done and drip comes out,
There is a future,
Must not doubt.
Secret thoughts, guilty lies,
I turn the head and avoid the eyes,
I said I was sorry but it didn’t mean much
Is there time for one more kiss?
Tell myself I have the right,
Tell myself that no one died.
I said I was sorry but it didn’t mean much
Will you give me one more kiss?
So sorry now you caught me in another lie
So sorry now I made you really want to die
So sorry now but I really need to ask for this
Can there be another kiss?
I won’t ask for more,
A final kiss.
Pours a wine
Hard to find
Knows he left
Not her best
Takes a drink
Indistinct
What he said
Not again
Bright light tonight
Searches every night
But she is denied
No choice
Couldn’t take her voice
Now he will not leave
He’s in her head
He wishes that
He were dead
Bright light tonight
Dreams of other men
He must make amends
Holds his hand once more
Now she’s truly bored
Tried so long
Couldn’t be that strong
And she’s in his head
And he’s nearly dead
Bright light tonight
Bright light tonight
I love my Mam and Dad,
Although they made me sad
Some time ago
I think they know
I love my Mam and Dad
I thank my Mam and Dad
Although some days were bad
Long time ago
We all must grow
I thank my Mam and Dad
I’ll miss my Mam and Dad
Of that I’m truly glad
As nights draw in
And I grow thin
I’ll miss my Mam and Dad
I am more than in the here and now
I am more than just last week
I am more than what you think of me
I am more than what you seek
I am the one who lived my childhood
I am the one who worked so hard
I am the one who thought she knew the truth
I am the one who dropped her guard
I will be the highest part of me
I will be the strongest one
I will be the things I need to be
My story isn’t done
Musty dust and mouldy cheese
Creaky neck and broken knees,
Strangers in and strangers out
Try to breathe, must not shout,
Rest awhile, you need your strength
Scalpel teases tumor’s length ,
Then the burning, will it hurt?
Still I nag, responses curt,
Shoulder pain, I snap and roar,
Then I’m sorry, just so sore,
It’s time to fight and not give up
A drop of hope refills my cup.
I have to sing a sad old song
I have to bash the keys
I have to cry a bit today
I’ll hide away the tears
I long to be a child again
I miss my slopey street.
Babs and John
And Al and Jo
Nonny Niggle too,
I think about the times we shared
I wish you missed me too
So here I am
At forty five
At least I’m not alone
Dem and Pete
I love you both
Your smiles mean I am home.
It will be awhile
Before you get a letter
It will be awhile
Before you get to know
It will be awhile
Before you get to worry
It will be awhile
Before you can feel low.
Until that day hath cometh
Until the final sound
You must wear your finest armour
And rule your battleground.
Long time ago
Inside my head
Ebenezer rocked
Though he was dead.
Then came the king
To sing a song
To rule the world –
He didn’t last long.
Some time ago
Inside my head
A different voice came
That made me scared.
Then came life’s work
To test me so
I think I passed
But even so
I’m well wrung out
And nearly half dead
I miss Ebenezer –
He danced in my head
I thought by now I’d have the words
To see you on your way,
I thought by now I’d have the sense
To ignore the things you say,
I thought by now I’d have the strength
To let this anger go,
I thought by now I’d have the grace
To forgive what’s gone before.
But still that day has not yet come and so my chest pulls tight
I think about your hurtful words and cry throughout the night.
